PAUSE PLEASE

Hooooly! I am so stressed out. I have so much to do, there are only 3 months of high school left, time is going by so fast, like it is already April! When did this happen!?!? Life, I'd greatly appreciate it if you would pause for a couple weeks..or months. Also, I know I've said it a million times but I am such a procrastinator! My dad told me if I don't stop I'm going to end up being 40 and living under a bridge in a cardboard box because I don't have a job and forgot to go to school...mmhhm. Thanks dad, I'm so glad you have faith in me. Things I need to do: Get a job, figure out summer travel plans, make an appointment with college counsellor, practice driving, find shoes to match grad dress, get dress altered...there are more, I just can't remember, which is also a problem. Oh! I found 45 more scholarships that I can apply for too.
:(
I don't want to grow up! Seriously, I wish I was 10 again. I am not ready to graduate, I am not ready to have to fend for myself, I am definitely not ready to grow up! I'm too naive. I wish time would just pause so I can get things organized and prepare myself for everything.

SCHOLARSHIPS ARE FINISHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Spring Break

Spring break went by waaaay too fast. I can’t believe I have to go to school tomorrow. I’m excited to see my friends, but am definitely not ready for the work. I feel like I just got caught up, and now it’s going to start all over again. Uhhg. I’m kind of disappointed. I hoped that I would be very productive over this week, but here I am on Sunday and I still haven’t finished scholarships. Besides that, it has been great. It was so nice to have this break. Boy, did I ever need it. Although, I guess I can’t really call it a break because I had homework in half my subjects! I did get to go away for a night to Harrison Hot Springs though. I love it there. I love getting away. Even though I spend most of my life on it, I love getting away from the computer, the t.v. and my phone. I like getting away from my life and forgetting everything. I like just being with my family and being away from my town. I think it’s good for me. Anyways, I had an awesome time. The weather was so beautiful! It was sunny and warm! I love it!!! Ok, I’m going to stop procrastinating and finish scholarships. Wish me luck.

Music Video?

On Saturday, I along with everyone else have the "opportunity to get on-camera experience, exposure, dress in crazy costumes and see Marianna's Trench live!!"

We will be making a "viral YouTube video that will follow 1000 people, lining a pathway, lipsynching the words to Raise Your Glass by P!nk, and Celebrity Status by Marianas Trench (who will actually BE IN THE VIDEO!!!!), all the while showing off crazy costumes, sharp dance moves, and energetic people. To up the stakes, we are filming it primarily in one continuous shot! Two weeks after we film, we will throw a big Launch Party downtown for everyone, and once on YouTube, businesses will pledge money based on the number of hits we get in the first month after release. This money will go directly to Make-A-Wish Foundation."
SO, I also have the opportunity to be featured! I can go on Friday for a special rehearsal and either dance, OR just lipsynch and maybe be shown across the screen! That would be awesome!

I think it will be a lot of fun, and it's for a good cause!!  :)

Jeff Wall

A couple weeks ago our french class had to research a famous Canadian artist. I chose the photographer Jeff Wall. I haven't been able to stop thinking about his photographs. I love them. They are so different and interesting! At the same time, they are almost plain and simple? Again, I really, really wish I could take cool photos. Sometimes I think I can, and I try. No. I end up taking pictures of random things, trying to be creative. They just look dumb.

I love this so much!

way too cute!!!!!!!

fear

First Day of Spring!!

Ahhh. It is the first day of spring today. It makes me sooo happy! The days last longer, the sun starts to shine, the weather changes from freezing to bearable. I am very excited that winter is over!

And I like this picture, and have been waiting to put it up. So here it is.

You are great

You need to know that. My friend, you are much too hard on yourself. I know you think I'm perfect and want my life, but I am definitely not the the kind of person who should be a role model. I'm not perfect, far from it actually. I have my flaws. Deep down, we all have inner struggles. I know you have your bad days, but think of how far you've come! Think of how your life started out. It's pretty great now. You're going to school-and doing well, you don't party anymore, you don't do the bad things you use to do. You said to me, "I haven't gone to a party in over a year. Sometimes looking at other people pictures makes me feel left out, but then I think about it and I would much rather be here with you guys, than at a party." That made me happy. Your life can only go up from here. You need to forget your past and what you've done. Or at least put it behind you. Thinking about it doesn't do you any good. I know you regret everything, but you can't change what has happened. It's made you who you are. You really are doing great.  I'm glad  you got your life back in order, and that you care. You are already planning on going to summer school, and school full time next year! You'll be caught up and graduated in no time! You have to keep working hard, and stop comparing yourself to me. You are your own person, and a great one at that!

Mumford and Sons

i love you.

Hahah

Car Lashes?
Yes please!

Car stache?

Oh Urban Outfitters. You sell the weirdest, yet coolest things.

Bad

I am bad. I had a lot of homework to do this weekend, including finishing grad trans and scholarships. But, it is quarter to 3 on Sunday and I have done absolutely nothing. Instead I am writing on my blog, checking Facebook, watching videos on Youtube...can you say procrastinator? Why do I do this to myself.

Bieber Fever?

So, my grandma took my sister, cousin and I to the Justin Bieber 3D Director's Fan Cut Movie thing today. I discovered Justin on youtube when he started posting videos. I loved him. Then when he became famous, it almost seemed like he was Usher's mini me. Although I never knew the kid, I felt like he changed. But, I had heard the movie was good, so I was actually looking forward to it. Woah. I loved it! It was very inspiring and made me wish it was me up there on stage. It seems like the fame hasn't gotten to his head, which makes me happy. Anyways, I really enjoyed it.  :)

Blog

Dear Blog,

You are taking over my life.

I can't say I don't enjoy it though.

Spring

I am so excited for spring and summer! I can't wait for the sun, and the colours, and the clothes!

March 10

Well today was interesting. After a very non-eventful and pretty boring day at school, I witnessed a car accident. I was standing impatiently at the bus stop when a car was waiting to turn left onto the road. Just as is was turning out, another car was driving down the road. The car turning out (car one) did not see the other car and hit the other car (car 2). Luckily, it was a school zone so they were both driving slow. I don’t know why car 2 didn’t stop though. She honked the horn and clearly saw car 1 coming out! Her car got pretty scratched up. She was not impressed. Apparently she has had her car for a year and a half, and this is the third time she has been hit. Hmmm, well that is interesting. Maybe that says something about your driving lady? The driver of car 1 did admit to not seeing her though. No one was hurt, and she got his information. The driver of car 1 looked pretty upset and embarrassed though-and he was a new driver. Poor kid. Anyways, it definitely added a little excitement to my day!

CASEY ABRAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH. MY. GOD.
HOW MUCH DO I LOVE YOU!?!?
YOU ARE AMAZING.
I HAVE NO WORDS TO EXPLAIN
ASLFHUDSFHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU ROCK.

Glee

The perfect ending to any day.

I love you. Thank you for always

putting a smile on my face!!

Just thought you should know

-You don't rule the place.
-Just because you makeout with every guy now, doesn't mean you're cool.
-You use to be nice. Now, you are a rude cow (If I swore, I'd most definitely be using a different word)
-You use to be a lot of fun. Now, you don't know how to have fun without alcohol.
-You make fun of people all the time, and talk behind everyone's back. But, do you remember who you used to be?
-You've turned into a fake barbie.
-You used to be proud about stuff like your grades. Now you are proud of who you kissed on the weekend.

My god, you've changed.
Not in a good way.

How cute is she!?

I actually love this song!

Me.

You know what, I really don't care anymore.
I used to care what everyone thought. In grade 8, I wanted nothing more then to be in the "popular" group. Now, I completely accept who I am. Yuup, I’m a loser. Yes, I’m a little weird. Ya, I’m quiet at times, but if you know me, I’m crazy! Yeah, I can definitely be annoying. But, I don’t care anymore. I’m not going to worry about what you or your “friends” think. At least I can say I have real friends. I know they will always be on my side, and I know we will always be friends. Quite frankly, I’m so happy I never became part of the kool kidz (because that‘s cool..). I would have to be fake. I’d write on everyone’s Facebook, telling them how pretty they are and how much I love them. B.S! I’d have to use words like “Boo” and “baby girl”, “hun” and “sweetie.” Get real. When I was drunk out of my mind, I would have to full on kiss my “friends.” Every weekend I’d be getting drunk. I would forget how to have fun without alcohol. I would also have to finger the camera. Because that’s always classy. I’d have to take thousands of pictures of myself, post them on Facebook, and write “eww I look ugly” because I’m so insecure about myself that I need people to tell me how gorgeous I am. I would probably have over 1000 friends, but how many of them would actually be friends? I don’t know what my little brain was thinking when I wanted to be you. You are all fake, rude, and completely ignorant.
I like being a little weird, a little quirky, a little awkward. It adds character; makes life fun.

All my life i've been good, but now...

haha. goood one! I'm funny!
not.
I'm a loser, but this song is catchy and I am enjoying it  :)

Props to me!

I think I deserve a great big round of applause!
I did not check my blog until I finished my english essay!
Go me! :)
I must say, I kind of enjoyed writing it?
I usually HATE original compositions, but I legit enjoyed this one. Weird.

Now I might go a little crazy :) !!

Gwyneth Paltrow's Grammy Shoes 2011

I know The Grammys were a while ago, but I haven't stopped thinking about these.
I.Am.In.Love.With.These.Shoes.



The Perfect Guy

What I want:

What will happen if I wait for this:

What I do instead of homework...

Life is Great

Over the past few days I’ve realized something. I take so much for granted. I’ve been sitting at home on my butt, bored out of my mind, and it got me thinking. I am lucky.

School
-No matter how much I complain about it, I love school. I’d much rather be at school, than sitting at home. I feel sorry for kids who don’t have the privilege of going to school.

Country
-Yes, it’s cheesy. But honestly, I think I live in the best place in the entire world! I don’t have to worry about be bombed, or hurricanes, tornados, tsunamis, or any of those sorts of things. I feel completely safe walking down the streets. I love Canada <3

Family
-I have an awesome family. My parents are awesome, my sister is awesome. I still have both sets of my grandparents, as well as my great grandma and great grandpa. I probably should make more of an effort to call them.

Friends
- have the absolute BEST friends in the entire world. I don’t know how much more alike we could be. It’s almost like the same person was born four different times, each with the slightest differences. I love them to death.

Pets
-Yup, I complain about have to walk the dog, and I complain about the cat waking me up in the middle of the night, but I love them. They make me happy.

House
-I never really think about my house. But, I come home everyday to a warm, and safe place. I know I’ll always have a bed to sleep in, and food in the fridge. My house protects me everyday of my life, and I’ve never even though twice about it.

Health
-I’ve never been deathly ill (knock on wood), mind you, I have felt like death. I should be more thankful for that. Right now, me as well as everyone I know, is healthy. So, life is good.

Music
-I just might die without it. It’s like therapy. It can lift my spirits, make me feel better, and it’s always there when I need it. Thank you music for being one of my best friends ;)

Sorry for the cheese fest, but I though I should acknowledge everything that makes my life great. There are more, but these are my top.

Lazy Song

Today I don't feel like doing anything
I just wanna lay in my bed
Don't feel like picking up my phone
So leave a message at the tone
Cause today I swear I'm not doing anything

Uh, I'm gonna kick my feet up and stare at the fan
Turn the TV on
Throw my hand in my pants
Nobody's gon’ tell me I can't, nah

I'll be lying on the couch just chillin in my snuggie
Click to MTV so they can teach me how to dougie
Cause in my castle I'm the freakin man

Oh Oh, yes I said it
I said it
I said it cause I can
Today I don't feel like doing anything
I just wanna lay in my bed
Don't feel like picking up my phone
So leave a message at the tone
Cause today I swear I'm not doing anything

Nothing at all!

Woah!

This is awesome...

thank you for keeping me alive

and thank you to advil cold & flu  <3

i love you.

The Fun Theory

Things That Make Me Happy

I absolutely love photography and wish i could do it.
Here are some photos I love....I will probably go overboard.