A world full of cruelty

The death of Amanda is something that I haven't stopped thinking about all day. I'm actually feeling emotionally drained. I try to think about my lowest point and how I felt. I've felt pretty horrible before but never so bad that I’ve even come close to thinking about killing myself, let alone try to. I can't believe how cruel people were to her, and every other kid out there who is bullied. Her story is absolutely heartbreaking. People make mistakes, she obviously wasn't proud of some of her choices but that doesn't give anybody the right to judge her or point fingers at her. It's really nobody's business but her own. Nobody deserves what she had to go through. It's so sad that her youtube video was posted weeks before last night and no one reached out to her. It was quite obviously a cry for help. She said she needed somebody yet no one seemed to be there for her until now. Ironic. I'm just so sad it got to the point that she felt that killing herself was the only way out. I'm glad she's not suffering anymore but she had her whole life ahead of her. I don't wish harm for her bullies because that would be doing exactly what they did to her. However, I hope they do feel guilty and learn from this. I hope it makes them think twice before judging someone, or making a nasty comment to someone. And not just her bullies, but everyone. This story hit really close to home and though I'm someone who doesn't judge people I can't say this has always been true. I've never been a bully, but I’ve never been one to stand up for someone either. This might just be the thing to change that in me, and many of kids in this town. Though it may not look like it, everybody has their own struggle. One person on her side could have made all the difference. It's time we learned to treat people with kindness. People make mistakes, but just let it go. We're only human, and everyone deserves to feel loved and have someone on their side. RIP

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Colyn Cameron is in Ivory Sky! Or was...?

On A Side Note...

I love hoop nose rings. Apparently we're not allowed to have them at work, but that might just be because my boss didn't like the girl that had it.

Folk Festival

I'll start out by saying the Folk Fest was amazing! Mia and I started out Friday by going to Superstore at 9am to get our food for the weekend. We managed to spend $15 each which is pretty darn good if you ask me. From there we headed to the mall where I FINALLY got my jean vest (too bad I didn't have a change to wear it!) At 2 we made our way to the sky train station. We sure were a sight to see! I had a small suitcase, backpack and purse while Mia had a suitcase, cooler bag and purse. We made it to Robson and started walking the wrong way while it was boiling outside. Soon we decided to stop and look up directions to my uncle's house. Covered in sweat, we finally made it and sat in Waves while waiting for my uncle to get home. While waiting we decided to go get dinner. My uncle suggested Jimmy's Tap House or something and I asked him if we could even go in there. He said yes. After walking past it about 5 times we decided to just go in. We finally got settled and were then asked for id which of course we didn't have. We ran out of there and ended up at Noodle Box. The staff were super friendly! We were asked where we were from because of all our bags and they just chuckled at us when we told them.

Once at my uncles we got our stuff together for the Folk Fest (i'm going to call it ff from now on). We jumped on the bus and were on our way. When we got off, we walked up the street even though we were told to walk down. Anyway, we finally made it in time to see Dala and Dan Mangan, well and a few others! Dan Mangan was awesome! We ended up getting back to the apartment around 11:40 and set our alarm for 6 the next morning.

On Saturday we got to the ff around 8:30 and when the gates opened at 9 we ran like madmen with everyone else to save spots at the main stage. My favourites of the day were Dala, Good for Grapes (they were awesome performers), then a workshop with Dan Mangan, Wake Owl, Mark Berube, and The Once! While at this, I swear to you I had a moment with Colyn Cameron , the singer of Wake Owl! He was singing and we made eye contact. It was quite a large crowd and we held that eye contact. Then when The Once started to perform I glanced over at him and we made eye contact again! Maybe this was in my head but I think we had a moment.

It was smoking hot out so Mia and I walked through the Fold Bazaar which were a bunch of tents set up that sold everything under the sun, and walked to the beach. After this we went and sat back down at the main stage. Then all the sudden who sits right behind us? Well Colyn Cameron of Wake Owl. His friends had a blanket behind ours! I had the perfect opportunity to say something, even just say they were awesome, or I really enjoyed their performance, or ask for a picture. Of course I froze and felt to awkward too. I'm seriously mad at myself. Who knows if anything would have come of that but now I'll never know, and now they're in L.A! This awkardness needs to stop. But Saturday night was so good. We saw The Once, The Barr Brothers, Jaron Freeman Fox and the Opposite of Everything, The Head and the Heart, and K'NAAN.

We got home late Saturday again and were up early Sunday morning. We just missed our bus and had to wait 30 minutes. Then it started sprinkling. We got to the ff and set up 3 different spots. One at the main stage, one under a tarp and another at stage 3 which is where we were going to spend most of our day watching The Barr Brothers, Jaron Freeman Fox and the Opposite of Everything, The Head and the Heart, Wake Owl, The Cave Singers, Dan Mangan and Mark Berube. Then it got chilly out so we decided we'd leave at 2 to go get pants. Of course the bus we hopped on went a different route we were used to so we got off. We must have looked lost because a very nice lady asked if we need help finding something. 3 hours later we were finally back at the festival! That night we saw Hey Rosetta!, The Johnny Clegg Band and the festival finale!

Long story short, it was an adventure and a lot of fun! I was in my glory with all the music. I cannot wait for next year!

make music vancouver

met my future boyfriend tonight. :)

I don't know why my font likes to change halfway through my posts. It's unfortunate.

MORE QUESTIONS!

Well this one looks fun!

1. Are you a morning person?

I can be! I'm usually tired but I have no problem being happy.

2. Are you a collector of anything?

Nail polish.

3. What is your favorite childhood tv show?

Lizzie McGuire, Even Stevens, Arthur

4. What do you think about before falling asleep?

I always make up scenarios in my head. Or I listen to music and just think about the lyrics.

5. What is your favorite color?

I think green.

6. Are you addicted to any video/computer game?

Plants vs. Zombies. Way too fun.

7. Do you have any bad habits?

Procrastinating...

8. Do you have any siblings?

Yes, baby sister.

9. Do you have any tattoos or piercings?

Ears!

10. What is your dream vehicle/bike?

Any, since I don't have one.

11. What famous person do people say you look like?

No one...I was told in grade 10 I look like Audrina Patridge but I don't see that.

12. What is your favorite rose?

Red?

13. What did you want to be when you were little?

A rock star or teacher.

14. What is stashed under your bed/mattress?

Nothing!

15. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?

Smile and eyes.

16. Do you consider yourself messy or clean?

Ha. Both. My room is usually messy though.

17. If you could live anywhere else other than where you are right now where would it be and why?

I would love to live in the UK. London or somewhere like that. I honestly am so obsessed with all the musicians there and I love the accents. I love Australian accents too.  

18. What is your favorite song?

Any Ed Sheeran song. I seriously love that man so much. I quite like Fall, Autumn Leaves, A Team is still one of my favourites.

19. Do you have any hidden talent.

No....I'm quite a good whistler haha.

20. What is one thing most people don’t know about you?

I'm not shy.

21. What is your favorite movie of all time?

Toy story!!! Harry Potter and Hunger Games are up there too. I also really liked Crazy Stupid Love.

23. Meaning behind my URL:

Um, well it just popped into my head and I used it.

24. Favourite movie:

...

25. Favourite song:

hah.

26. Favourite band:

Ed Sheeeeeran! Too bad he's not a band.

27. How I feel right now:

Dandy.

28. My current relationship status:

Single.

29. My relationship with my parents

Great.

30. Favourite holiday:

Christmas!

31. Tattoos and piercing i have:

Hahaha. Ears. 

32. Tattoos and piercing i want:

Mm, I don't really know.  

33. The reason I joined Blogger:

I wanted to try it out.

34. Do I and my last ex hate each other?:

We have a love/hate relationship.

35. Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?:

I have yeah.

36. Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?:

Ha noo.

37. When did I last hold hands?:

I couldn't tell ya.

38. How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?:

My record with a shower is 30 minutes. Usually and hour and a half because I like to take my time.

39. Have I shaved your legs in the past three days?

I shaved just past my ankles today because I was wearing capris and was too lazy to do my whole leg.

40. Where am I right now?

Sitting on the couch.

41. Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?:

LOUD!

42. Do I live with my Mom and Dad?:

Yes.

43. Am I excited for anything?

Music Festival in Vancouver on Thursday

44. Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?:

No.

45. How often do I wear a fake smile?:

Um, probably at work. Although a lot of the time my smile is genuine.

46. When was the last time I hugged someone?:

Everyday! 4 hugs a day, that's the minimum.

47: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?:

Ugh. I don't know.

48. Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?:

Um probably not.

49. What is something I disliked about today?:

The weather.

50. If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?:

 One Direction! It would be the most entertaining day ever.

51. What do I think about most?:

"Oh he is cute" - Mia

52. What’s my strangest talent?:

I can do armpit farts.

53. Do I have any strange phobias?:

...not that I can think of right now.

54. Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?:

Both.

55. Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?:

Phone.

56. Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?:

Ghosts, yeah..well more like spirits but I've never actually thought about the possibility of aliens existing.

57. Do I believe in magic?:

When I'm in Disneyland!

58. What’s the weather like right now?:

Lets just say it Juneuary

59. What was the last book I’ve read?:

Fifty Shades of Grey.

60. Do I like the smell of gasoline?:

Yeah! 

61. Do I have any nicknames?:

Yup! My name minus the last letter.

62. What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?:

Spraining my finger in grade eight, or slicing it at work.

63. Do I spend money or save it?:

Spend....I like to think I save it though.

64. Can I touch my nose with a tongue?:

No, I just tried.

65. Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?:

Not that I can see.

66. Favourite animal?:

  My cat & dog.

67. What was I doing last night at 12 AM?:

Reading.

68. How can you win my heart?:

Have a sense of humor and be respectful.

69. What would I want to be written on my tombstone?:

I don't want to think about that.

71. If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?:

Don't be afraid to dream.  

72. Do I have any relatives in jail?:

Not that I know of.

73. I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables.

Well that's no good.

74: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?:

I don't have a lot to hide so I'm not too sure.

75. What is my current desktop picture?:

A very cute vintage collage.

76. Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?:

No.

77. Had job?:

Stupidstore.

78. Left the house without my wallet?:

Yes.  

79. Played on a sports team?:

Definitely not.

80. Been to a wedding?

Yes!

81. Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?:

I don't doubt it.

82. Watched TV for 5 hours straight?:

Yeah.

83. Been outside my home country?:

Yes!

84. Gotten my heart broken?:

I can't say I've been heart broken but I've been upset yeah.

85. Been to a professional sports game?:

Yes.

86. Broken a bone?:

No!

87. Been to prom?:

Yeah!

88. Been in airplane?:

Yes!

89: Learned another language?:

French.

90. Wore make up?:

Not everyday or anything.

91. Dyed my hair?

I've gotten streaks yeah.

92. Voted in a presidential election?:

Nope.

93. Rode in an ambulance?:

No.

94. Had a surgery?:

I've got my tonsils removed. Does that count?

95. Met someone famous?:

YES! Ed <3

96. Stalked someone on a social network?:

Ok, who hasn't?!

97. Peed outside?:

Hahahah yeah...

98. Been fishing?:

No.

99. Helped with charity?:

Yes?

100. Been rejected by a crush?:

Kind of. Actually not really.

101. What do I want for birthday?:

Well a car would be nice :)

102. How many kids do I want and what will be their names?:

Two or three. Maybe two and then an adopted kid. I don't know yet! I want something original.

103. Was I named after anyone?:

My mum's best friend.

104: Do I like my handwriting?:

No, it's terrible.

105. What was my favourite toy as a child?:

Barbies, Groovy Girls, Bratz.